I'm kind of blah about Christmas this year, here are my theories.
1. The past two years have been HELL on wheels and we're just cooked. Well I am anyway. I'm just feeling angry and disgusted at the entire banking/real estate world. And listen up Anonymous: don't go spouting that pig manure that we got what we deserved. We never deserved this - never - not in a million years. Not me, not my husband, certainly not my kids. We are prime examples of a family doing everything right and still getting kicked to the curb. It can happen to anyone, including hard-working people. Anyone could be next.
2. I'm not religious, and the more I read the more I realize the story of Jesus's birth was a huge effort by the the Christian authorities to put down pagan and druid solstice celebrations and the squash the divine feminine. Bummer. But I still like the music.
3. Hard to make merry when you're living an 1/4 of a shoestring.
4. I miss my parents. Still. After over 10 years.
5. I'm homesick for my house, and so are my kids.
But some really good things are going on anyway:
1. Our little family is talking and laughing together more in our new little house. Is it the house size or the relief that the move and loss are over?
2. Cupcake likes to bake, and we're doing it all the time.
3. Housework is a snap these days. 1500 sq feet is a lot quicker to wipe up than 2700.
4. Some wonderful things are still the same: my family, my extended family, my friends, my internet friends, etc.
5. My current job is much higher on the fun scale than my old one. The Middle School band played holiday music throughout the lunch hours and the annual staff pot-luck was in the lounge. Great food!!! I like working in a place where outrageous Christmas sweaters and costume jewelry are encouraged.
6. Our school's holiday sale! Our media center has a bookstore called Tattered Pages where the kids can buy donated books with "coupons" they earn through good behavior, good grades, and doing chores from the job jar. At the holidays it expands greatly and includes gifts and new books donated by local merchants. With donated gift paper, we wrap the books for the kids to take home. It's open every school day all this week, and one night, so families and all students can take advantage. The kids love it.