Friday, October 2, 2009

What's worse than a broken heart?


Here's what's worse; watching your child's heart break.

We had to turn our cats over to the Humane Society today. The rental doesn't allow cats, and we couldn't find them homes. So we put our loves in the kennel and gave them up.

It was so much harder than I anticipated. God Help Me I fell in love with those stinkers. They followed me everywhere outside, and loved us as much as cats could. I'll miss their placid faces watching me garden. I'll miss their soft purring. I'll miss their unconditional love.

But by far the hardest part has been watching my 10-year-old cupcake fall to pieces. She says it's like a bad dream, and she wants to wake up. Feels like abusing your own child. How do you explain this to a child? How do you rip her living furry soft loves out of her arms because you can't afford them, and can't take them to a rental? How does she forgive us?

Why Universe????
Why take away my husband's job, then our livelihood, then our home, now our pets??
I seriously want some answers . . . . now.

10 comments:

Fran said...

Oh my God, that is so heartbreaking, I am sitting here crying too.

I am so sorry you have had to endure so much and this seems like a sharp edge, slicing away at what remains.

There is nothing I can say to make you feel any better, I am so sorry. I do send my heart.

Beth said...

hugs to you! and your sweet little gal! How awful!

PS (PSanafter-thought) said...

Oh, so hard. And no answers in the universe to those questions. I have learned that the Why doesn't make any difference. We think that knowing why will gain us some control, but it doesn't. But we still want to know why.

SkylersDad said...

This hurt so much to read, I am so sorry for you and your family.

themom said...

My heart is breaking for you! I wish I could do something to help, but distance rules that out. But I am here for moral support!

kirelimel said...

I am so sad for you all! Our cat Fruff was in the same boat- we got her from the humane society and she had gotten there the same way your cats did.

Pets have their own journeys to make in life just as we do- I had to explain this to my kids when we found a new home for the puppy that Husband brought home at the wrong time last spring. They may have to leave us but they will make their way to where they belong.

I'm still so sad for you and the girls. Hugs all around.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry.

Shan said...

This is heartbreaking, and so unfair. You poor little honeys!

Churlita said...

I'm so sorry. That's so horrible. God, I hope this all turns around for you and fast.

kim said...

Fuck the bank.